I am happy to be teaching again -- a job that I absolutely love and is so much a part of who I am. I love the feeling of independence and achievement that I get every day when I am with my students. I love the thrill of helping students learn new skills. I love interacting with my colleagues every day -- I missed it all!
What I found, however, was that I felt little pangs of guilt for enjoying my time at school, because it meant that I had to be way from Maelyn. Although I knew logically that I shouldn't be feeling guilty, the guilt still nagged at me here and there. I also felt sad that I was missing out on the cute and amazing things she would do throughout the day -- we spent so much of our time together laughing.
On the other hand, I am thrilled for Paul that he is getting the chance to spend so much time with his little girl. He is an amazing father and has proven over this past week that he is an extremely competent stay-at-home dad. I love being able to come home and hear about all of their daily adventures! (And on a side note, I totally don't miss doing the dishes, laundry, making dinners, etc. You are welcome to it, Paul!)
I find it weird to only spend a few hours at the end of the day with Maelyn. I wonder if I will ever get used to that??
I love that I seem to have more patience for Maelyn and love spending more time playing one-on-one with her in the evenings and on the weekends. What we have lost in quantity, we are making up for in quality.
It is weird to have Maelyn call me 'Daddy' by accident when she wants something, when it used to be 'Mama' for absolutely everything.
I learned that we can survive a change of pace in our family and that we are all going to be just fine....
In Daddy's shoes...
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